First of all, I’m sorry I haven’t been tumbling lately let’s just say my life has taken the greatest fall I have ever experienced. It’s made me realize a lot… but also, it’s made me so emotionally damaged and it’s terrifying. I have horrible thoughts running through my mind at 100 miles per hour everyday, all the time. I hate nights the most though, I’m afraid of what I might wake up to the next morning. I’m just so messed up… I miss my old life. I would give anything or do anything to go back in time… but I can’t. This is my reality now whether I like it or not. It will never get better but I have the hope that things will get easier. You never know what you have until it’s gone and the day that it’s gone you would do anything to get it back. So many old thoughts in my mind twisting and turning with all the new thoughts. It’s all freaking me out. It’s like mentally hurting myself on the outside but I’m not actually performing any actions. My problems are all internal and that scares me too. Everything scares me. Sorry I just couldn’t sleep again Tumblr. Thanks for listening.
I’m really thankful for having many people in my life that are so supportive. They are the ones who see me more than just an “underdog”. I love each and every one of those people too. :]
I’m smothering my bestie Mandy (aka transformer4ever) in this picture… She is my favorite ginger and I’m am proud to call her one of my best friends ever.
These two are two of my best guy friends, Mike and Willie. I love em’ too death.
This little lady’s name is Katie (aka shamel3ss), she is also a best friend of mine. I couldn’t live without her even if I tried.